A relaxing evening out

Went to Buffalo Wild Wings tonight. Our waitress was in training...it was pretty obvious. She said something about her being a dork. I said that I understood...we were all band teachers. She proceeds to tell us how she use to laugh at the band kids in high school. The beer helped to soften my sense of humor. I then proceeded to laugh at her for her ignorance. Funny how things come full circle.

Quarter life crisis, part 2

I think I'm having another quarter life crisis. Or maybe it's just been going on for the past year...who knows. My job prospects are a little scarry. Not only am I applying for jobs in the teacher world again, but if that doesn't work out, I'm also sending my resume out to some really random jobs. I've been searching for the last 2 1/2 hours on hotjobs for anything that looks remotely promising. I've come up with an Export Coordinator for a trucking company (at least I think it's a trucking company...not really sure), and some kind of analyst for Anadarko. I think I'd rather have the latter, since it's only about 5 minutes from my house and right next to the mall! I've always secretly wanted to be one of those business people who have power lunches at Brio or Cheesecake Factory. But I digress...

Well I am selling Mary Kay now, but I would need to work my little Mary Kay ass off to bring in anything substantial right now. I'm just a Mary Kay baby.

I think I'm ready to get my corporate feet wet, though. That regulatory analyst position is looking pretty good right now.

Heart breaking

One of my best friends is going through complete heart break right now. For reasons unknown to us at the present, the baby she's been carrying for the last 30 weeks has gone to be with the Lord. I have no idea how this feels. I don't know how to comfort her. She seemed so strong when I talked to her and saw her in the hospital. I was a basket case! She's one of my best friends, and I don't want to see her hurting. I can only hope and pray that her labor is painless, and her delivery is quick. I love you sweetie!

Wishful thinking?

Weight: I don't know...I've put my scale AWAY!

I have been inspired by my sister to start running. And although I'm a terrible runner, I've still signed up to run a 5K in January. I figure I'd better start out small, so as not to overwhelm myself. I'm pretty easily overwhelmed, and 13.1 miles just sounds like a lot o' runnin. I've started out on the treadmill because it's just embarrassing how little I actually run. I'm also starting to get too dependent on movies getting me through a run, so I need to stop that pretty quick.

Oh, and speaking of embarrassing, there is no sports bra on this planet that can tame the girls! I think some day they might actaully knock me out. It's not a pretty picture having them jump for joy with every step I take. Just take my word for it. If anyone has any suggestions or tips, I'd be happy to try anything. Perhaps I should bind them with an Ace Bandage or duct tape...hmmm...

So here I sit in May with my wishful thinking for 8 months away with only one goal in mind...run the whole 5K without stopping. Pretty hefty goal for a hefty girl? I guess we'll see!

To baby or not to baby...

Everyone around me is having babies. I went to the mall a week ago with three of my girlfriends who happen to ALL be pregnant. It was quit a sight! One is due any day, the other in June, and the other in July. As we were walking by a vendor booth, the lady asked if we would like a brochure for the dresses she sells. The look on her face as she looked down to three pregnant bellies was priceless!

It's fun watching my friends get pregnant and go through the process of having the baby and watching the baby grow. I'm having a hard time believing this is in the cards for me. I hear it changes your life...is that an understatement? Am I going to turn 40 or 50 and regret not starting a family? My clock is starting to tick louder and louder, and it's getting harder and harder to just ignore it. My doctor tells me if I'm going to do it, I should jump in pretty soon considering I'm having "issues" in the area of conceiving.

Maybe I should go back to teaching full time and remember why I didn't want kids in the first place.

I gotta stop talking about food

Weight: 172

You would be proud of me. I went to Cheesecake Factory, sat in the parking lot for a couple of minutes, then left. It's called will power people, and I used a little bit of it tonight. It was hard, but I even managed to leave without going to Starbucks too. Just because I went earlier today wouldn't have kept me from going again. It was that will power thing kicking in. It was just after 9 pm, but I had no urge to go home, so I went to HEB instead of dinner. I love just walking around that store. It's in kind of a posh part of town, so they have a lot of organic and specialty foods. I spent about 20 minutes wandering aimlessly down each aisle only to get some dried aprocot chips. They're pretty good, but very pricey. This is The Woodlands; I suppose I should know better.

So tomorrow's another day I will attempt to avoid going to CF. I have food at home...I don't NEED to go there. I'll say this in my head as I pull into their parking lot. I don't think the will power's going to last that long. At least I'm not getting the $14.99 Bang Bang Chicken and Shrimp (which by the way is to DIE for), I'm getting the half-that-price salad. Mmmm....spinach.

It's time to get pretty!

That's right people, I'm one of "them". I wear skirts and heels and get all excited about the new lipstick colors coming out. I am a Mary Kay beauty consultant. I carry skin care surveys in my purse, and I'm not afraid to use 'em! This is by far the coolest thing I've ever done. I don't care if you think I'm wierd or dorky. I'm about to break my social retard bubble. This is big for me. I can actually get on the phone and call people I don't know! I think that deserves a lip gloss. Their lip gloss is kick ass!

Check out my site! Hey, and if you wanted to buy something, I'd be okay with that! :o)